you must have some experience when you are in a situation where you are more concerned with the subject of an act rather than what he/she did, how he/she did it, or even you didnt care about his/her purpose of doing that.
in a discussion or deliberation, to prevent a dispute, you tend to cover things which are different from others by tolerating dissents, listening what they are saying, understanding what they are thinking, or anything that could cover the differences. you forced yourself to find similarities as much instead of differences, right?
but, can you imagine of someone who pushed herself to find which part of others doing was missing or wrong, then by doing that, she would be thinking so hard about things that might be debatable, or in this case, she can criticize? although she fully recognized that what that one did is definitely true, trustworthy, not even doubtful.
she pushed herself to cover similarities instead of differences.
she forced herself to think about it in detail, to guess at her will, till she made her own judgment without realizing that she doesnt know anything at all about it. haha
she played with her own feelings, without thinking that actually she was in the middle of discussion to get the best decision, to find the best solution.
she was just self-centered, ‘kekeuh’ with what she believed in, so close-minded person, and whatever you call it.
she just concerned with WHO SAID IT, WHO DID IT, WHO CRITICIZED HER, WHO TRIED TO GIVE SUGGESTION FOR HER, WHO, AND WHO, AND WHO MADE HER SO CONCERNED ABOUT THAT ONE.
and she pretended to be okay with what she did after that. haha *siapa lo shab*
you might feel so annoyed with her. she looks like she just wants to make more enemies, right? so assumptive. subjective.
but, you know?
sometimes, we just didnt know what was actually behind that. we just didnt recognize things. we are just not enough sensitive to understand her.
that might be,
she had her own reasons why she did it.
she didnt know how to express her care feeling properly.
she just wanted to overcome her own problems.
or it’s more because..
we didnt know about her, even a single thing?
oh no no, the problem is: she.has.a.special.feeling.for.him.
she had no choice but to convince herself that she is much much better than him, so she could cover her own feelings.
either she or we, didnt even realize that.